So, for starters, I've never done this before, nor do I know how to do this. By 'this' I mean talking about my problems, well that is except to the one person who this all stemmed from. I guess you could say I put all my eggs in one basket, and along the way I lost myself. Im now attempting to find out who I am again, I forgot what it is like to just be myself, and make myself happy without relying on him. For three years I let him define my happiness, and at some point I forgot that you are the only one that can create your own happiness. I am going to start writing in this virtual journal in hopes that if my thoughts are written down they will somehow lead me in the right direction to becoming myself again, and to becoming happy on my OWN. First things first is personal affirmations, I WILL be okay, I AM amazing, and most of all I DO deserve better.